House Of Your Heart

Posted on | July 25, 2011 | No Comments

as written January 30, 2010

For some time, I had been feeling the whispers from within, from above – to do something that was totally and completely out of my comfort zone. To put myself out there in another way where I would have to face my fear of failure, to make myself reach out to others, to open up, make myself vulnerable on a regular, monthly basis. And so was born, my Women’s Group. Co-hosted with my confidante and fellow trenches-survivor Jen, we would do this thing.

Ever since I saw how the men that got to spend time in the Ranch clung to each other and worked through their shit together and hugged each other and cried with each other – and I drove home alone to my empty house – this had been working its way through me until it became a cohesive thought. Until God trusted me enough with it to actually make it happen. And the words to explain what it was poured out of me with such passion and purpose – I knew it was greater than me, so I could stop being so nervous about it. It’s always a little more reassuring knowing it’s God’s idea rather than your own. So – we kick it off tonight. Wish me luck…

Location: My roost; otherwise known as the “House of My Heart”
Hosted: by Monica and Jen
When: The first HOYH will be held Saturday, January 29th
Time: 7pm til whenever you can tear yourself away.
What it is: A Den of Honesty, where women can come together in complete freedom for a safe place to feel, vent, cry, scream, swear, laugh, discover, and venture further inland within the magnificent world of your hearts. A place to discuss the theme or whatever we feel we need to, in more depth than we can anywhere else. It’s a place where there is no judgment, where there is nothing but love and understanding and empathy. To ask questions that maybe you didn’t feel comfortable asking in other places- it’s simply a richer forum to share experience, strength, and hope.
Theme: Each month we’ll have a theme- which I’ll send out weeks in advance, for you to think about. January will be, “Fear.”
Who: Girls only! This will be an estrogen filled sanctuary. My vision for creating this group was for an expansion of Sisterhood: to experience intimacy with a group of women that can allow us to feel safe enough to find intimacy with ourselves. I trust that God will make sure everyone that needs to be there will learn about it. Be prayerful, and bring yourselves: to share your deepest, to be heard, and to visit your heart in a safe, protected place.
To Bring: Your beautiful selves & bring your journals! And feel free to bring an appetizer, drink, or dessert – but know you don’t have to.

What I Know For Sure: When you walk through my door, you’ve entered the House of Your Heart. Think about that, try and give yourself permission to do so, no matter what you may find. And I promise, as the Spirit has guided me to say and feel and know: you will be protected on all sides. I have seen very clearly, that The House of My Heart has special trained forces standing guard: shoulder to shoulder, swords and spears at the ready…keeping us safe. This is how sacred Heartwork is to Heavenly Father, and this is the kind of protection he will provide for us while we feel our way there. The Spirit has prompted me more than once to start this Sanctuary with you, and I feel humbled and fearful and excited at the prospect of what miracles will happen because of it.

There is a room in a place that is sacred to me, where it just feels different than anywhere else. This fierce, yet gentle love that softens the edges and soothes the weary heart…I believe it feels so because Heavenly Mother herself visits that room – a place where Her sons come to unburden, where they are given a safe haven to allow their unbearable shame to surface. Such Heartwork as this is something I believe very strongly that She oversees, that She cares intensely about, and that She herself will be present while it happens. This is Her world, too…and as I reflected upon that, and the promptings to start a meeting with you women – I heard the words:

This meeting will be personally watched over by Heavenly Mother Herself...

Wherever Her daughters gather to examine the wounds of the heart, She is present. Providing grace, courage, validation, and profound strength to help us feel what we need to feel. She heads this meeting, and I am humbled to my core to know any of this.

Many of us have the same mentor, a Mighty Woman named Kris. She is the one who taught us the imperative work of the heart, and in continuing this we are taking her endless sacrifice, her personal surrender, her irrefutable loss – and we’re taking it deeper, propagating her work further, widening the scope of healing hearts until one day, the whole world will partake of it. It started with her, so let’s break open the gates, let’s tear down the walls beside her – let’s give testament to the Atonement by showing the courage to face our own hearts…and by doing so, the world indeed will eventually be able to Come unto Christ because finally, we will be able to feel Him.”And the angels sing, and the Angels sing…All is well, all is well!”

My dear sisters…it is my honor to be with you; where we all can love, understand and validate each other in this most exquisite agony as we traverse the simultaneous rocky and glorious road of addiction, mental illness, codependency, tragedy, imperfection, and disease.

Can’t wait to see you. Please let us know if you have any questions or concerns, ideas or inspiration. We open up our hearts to you…

Loves,

Monica & Jen

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