Wine Of Mine

as written September 1, 2010 The Woman was asked to speak at an ARP Fireside on addiction. She was bold, empowering, humbling, and incredible as usual. And the other two speakers (recovering addicts, both of them) were great – they had INTENSE stories that had you on the edge of your seat for most of it. [...]

Our Time

as written May 14, 2010 My mentor, The Woman sent me something. Something that I didn’t know how badly I wanted – until she issued the invite that honored me. And others. To come to Family Group where we could be honored. Validated. And celebrated. For those of us…who weren’t the ones who still held the hands [...]

Keep Me Moving

as written April 9, 2010 Talking to The Woman the other week, and bringing up my go-to; my Self-Pity. And she said that Self-Pity is really, in fact, another character defect called Self-Condemnation. Because SP is still projecting outward, blaming or sorrowing over circumstances I think I had no control over. SP is still not taking ownership for [...]

Where We Carry

as written March 19, 2010 So many thoughts about the difficulty of women trying to truly internalize our worth in a thousands-of-years male dominated society, religion and history. Imagine if women held the priesthood, if the Savior was a woman, if God was a woman, if the heirarchy of the church was all women, if [...]

Echoes

as written November 12, 2009 I went to Family Group last night. The pain that hit me was when The Woman spoke about the wives who don’t work on their own recovery (emotional health) and simply leave their husbands instead – and what a miracle it is for her to see husbands and wives fall in [...]

Emotional Infections

as written November 3, 2009 Another Family Group night where I simply sit there and absorbbbbbbbbbbbbbb, letting it wash over me without trying to understand it logically at first. Like learning a new language, the baptism of it is what gives you the feel for it. So once again, I let The Woman crash over [...]

Lifted

as written November 1, 2009 A regular and awful reality of our lives: Sometimes, the men we love pass away. My sister Dena’s Mike just did last week. OD’d and was found alone at his keyboard. We gathered around her at Family Group, and she shared; honestly, openly: “Just because I don’t smoke crack and [...]

Remembered

as written October 9 to 11, 2009 When I escaped from work on Friday, I headed down to St. George. The Woman just happened to be doing a weekend long workshop there, and so I got to focus my searing heartache elsewhere. God bless her – it was exactly what I needed. Before I arrived, [...]

The Absent Rib

as written October 9, 2009 I feel like a pawn. Like some mean trick. I asked Adam to come to the wedding with me, and last night, as we finally talked about how we were feeling and why he said no, I realized the truth. I was meant to ask him, not so he would [...]

After The Happily Ever After

as written June 11, 2009. IM conversation with my good friend, Meesh. 4:09 pm Monica: I’ve actually been contemplating starting up my blog again. Leaving what was there, but talking about my life. Maybe posting the journey I’ve taken. I have to decide if I have big enough cajones to do that. To address your thoughts…the boyzzzz eh? [...]

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